LETSBREAKEGGS!

hey yal ! how's everyone doing !?
well for one . i am feeling so great !!! not of or about myself but of and about God and what
He is so obviously doing in my life .
and my Gosh . i'm just so glad and excited what he has installed for me when i get into Lasalle .
i don't know . if anyone one notices that i've changed or not and no , if you didn't , its fine . but you know
i think its important that I am aware that i have indeed grown into my "own skin " and in terms of confidence .

and i have a few people to Thank , people like Elaine Tan . Auntie Sally . for taking me under their Wings when i was working for them in the FBG office .
( and just in that 5 weeks , when i was open and willing . so much changed in me and i've learnt SOOOOO much !!!! can you imagine another 3 months there ?!?! how much more i could have gained and learnt ! ) 
when Elaine "pushed " me out to do things i've never had the confidence in doing and it can be such simple tasks like setting up the com , running simple errands .
things like that used to petrify me . cuz i just think . you know . i'm bound to screw up
i'm bound to Fail . i'm sure you guys feel that way sometimes .
but this has been such a problem for me and it has prevented me from
growing
but i'm just so Glad .
that Elaine saw that i needed that boost , that i could do it , that God was there to keep me
strong
and keep my calm
and full of energy .
Even when i did make mistakes , even when i was tired and sleepy ,
there was space for mistakes which i embraced fully  .
and there were chances for me to Learn from them (i'm a slow learner in certain aspects so ... hehe )
and through that whole short but awesome awesome experience .
my confidence in myself has gone up just a lil more and just enough
for my to believe that i, with people who are wiser than me and with God by my side, Will be fine at Lasalle and i Will not have any fears
cuz God takes care of everything !!!!!
YEAH!

and the DNA cell group . my gosh . you girlsssss !!! really . i NEVER in my life , let me emphasize , NEVER . would have thought you guys to have been so Awesome !!! and wise and down to earth and everything !!! my gooosh !!
i'm just gush ing here . but i think there is a need for me to acknowledge things that i've gained in just a short span of time .
i've learnt . to accept compliments. as embarrassing and hard as it is to do .
i've learnt to accept that yes . i am Beautiful , and so in Everyone . cuz God made me and everyone this way !!!
Sarah told me "be comfortable in your own skin " and you know what ?
that just stuck to me
cuz i don't want to be scared anymore .i don't want to be embarrassed of who i am
or what i am

yes i can be shy but i don't want to be scared . (trying very hard)
but i'm sure i'll get the hang of it !
just today . Sam said i looked more feminine . and hmm . i was thinking . whether it is true or not, i don't care . but i am getting more comfortable with myself . but willing to learn and change my ways.

it isn't hard for me to share these things, cuz , for one , i'm typing it out . yeah i know . its so much easier isn't it
and secondly . cuz i'm not scared of telling you guys that i'm just so Glad and so Happy God makes so much effort for us . it takes just a lil courage from us to overcome what we see to be such huuuuuge hurdle . but it takes so much from God to be patient and to plan out everything and to be forgiving when we choose to stay in our comfort zone

so after all i've said . i just want to get to the core and its so simple .i'm not saying . you know what i say i Correct but its my reflection on what i have learnt

its to be willing to change and let other mould you . cuz i know . i am not a great person and i recognize the change in me when i allow people to advice and encourage me and teach me .
i'm glad . to be honest .

And . it's to see that everything that you do , you are doing it for God . so do your best .and you'll see the fruit ... cuz God is no ones debtor
 when i was working for Elaine . no i didn't slack (much ) !!!
but she told me " you could have thrown a tantrum . or acted up . you could have fake sick and stay home cuz you felt lazy , but you didn't . and through that . you learnt things you can't learn anywhere else "
and i was like yeah .
that is very true . and that Is my fruit . everyday i go there . without fail . i learn something . even if i learnt it though a mistake . it was awesome .
(okay sorry i'm rambling )
and that was Gods gift to me . he'd built my relationship with Elaine and auntie Sally and through them, He taught me so much !
and yes after repeating myself so many times .
i've grown . even if its just a lil .
i'm glad .
so hmm . i'm not sure how this can apply to anyone . but oh well =) just .. wanted to share !!!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee